Tag Archives: acceptance

Growth of Dreams

Oh! I had the most wonderful dream the other night. It kind of surprised me. I have been paying attention to how I feel during my dreams so that I can work out what my subconscious is pondering. Anyway, I … Continue reading

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Red is a nice color

Where did our decency go? Before Facebook, Twitter……were all of us fake? There isn’t one color in the box that I find ugly. Each color has its various shades and brilliance. The only color that bothers me is beige. Blah. … Continue reading

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Existential Thinking

Throughout my life I’ve questioned why I’m here. Is this all there is? If so, I don’t want it. If I have no reason to be here, then why do I exist? I know that I’m not the only person … Continue reading

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What’s Your Diagnosis?

When I was diagnosed with cancer, I had to know everything. Had I known at the time they could have done genomic testing of my cancer, I would have pushed for that. Who knows, maybe they did do that…or experimented … Continue reading

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Scream a Little Scream

This is not an uplifting post….just a warning. Whatever my professional diagnosis, I teeter between a somewhat level emotional state and a “oh no, I’m slipping into the abyss”. Being that I don’t completely trust my psychiatrist (just as I … Continue reading

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Dialysis days with my sister

**To some, this may sound repetitive, some of it is….. My younger sister was told in March 2012 that she was in end-stage heart failure and end-stage kidney failure. Her doctor talked to her about a machine that would help … Continue reading

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Standing on the other side

I read a quote today… The grass isn’t greener on the other side, it’s greener where you water it. …I admit that my grass has seen better days. I am at a loss to find my voice. I’m neither looking … Continue reading

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I’ve Seen That Movie Too

At the age of 5 – or there about – we are so excited to go to the big kid school, and everything is possible. The age of 16, we can drive a car. Woo Hoo! At 18 we can … Continue reading

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Just what makes that little old ant…think?

A few words here, a few there. Do people process information like they used to? Has it always been a world of judgement? Do we have the 1960’s to blame, or the 1980’s? I’m pretty sure in an ant colony, … Continue reading

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Fairy Tales Simply Don’t Exist, They’re Made

As I have found a way to live in spite of clinical depression, so I learn to live with anxiety. I’m finding a way to live with the fact that there are no guarantees in life. I keep searching for … Continue reading

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