Author Archives: April

About April

I'll come back to this when I find out who I really am. I've been through some extremely rough patches but they have made me a better person. I blog if my brain is functioning first thing in the morning.

Wash and Dry

I have to pull a Whoa, Nellie! That’s the problem with Bipolar….mania. In my case I have what is called hypomania which only means that my manic phases aren’t as grandiose as that of someone with Bipolar I. Bipolar II … Continue reading

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Turn That Frown Upside Down

Is my title that stupid saying? Believe me….oh wait, I swore I would never say those two words together….ever. I will tell you for a fact that when I don’t feel like smiling I don’t want to turn my frown … Continue reading

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In Denial……Again

One of the most disappointing parts of myself are when I say I’m committing to something and don’t follow through. I wrote about my dirty little secret. (Oh….WP has changed some since I was last on here) I think when … Continue reading

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Sapling

A little sapling Stretching, Reaching for the sun Growth It grows cold Dark Freezing A little sapling breaks   Welp, that’s all I had on my mind. I have been blogging….sort of. I haven’t published anything. I have been focusing … Continue reading

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What Can I Do?

With all the weather disasters and the latest shooting in Las Vegas, I have been thinking about death. A lot. Actually, before all the recent events I was thinking about death. Not suicide, just death. George Washington was here once. … Continue reading

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Trying Too Hard

Finding, or noticing, triggers for depression is very hard for me. Or maybe I simply ignore the triggers and keep on pushing until I break, only to find out that I broke over nonsense. I’m not one for change. It’s … Continue reading

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Here

I used to be there I used to be here Here and there Did I choose the wrong fork in the road? No, I turned around Did I run? Walk? Crawl? Think? Wander aimlessly? Here I am How did I … Continue reading

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Sunday With April

Some of what I found beautiful this week…. I love when people tell me they believe I’m much younger than the number of my years Some perfect weather with fan-in-the-window sleeping instead of a/c Good mammogram screening My husband finally … Continue reading

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Another Attempt At Mindfulness

Again, I have started reading, The Mindful Way Through Depression. I have actually read the first chapter….twice! Well, four times if the other readings are taken into account. Anyway, the author points out how some of us living with depression think … Continue reading

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Beauty in Ordinary Things

My husband and I were watching something…..well, he was watching, I was staring off into space, listening. I can’t remember what we were watching but the phrase, “I find beauty in the ordinary things”, made me pay attention. I asked … Continue reading

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