Author Archives: April

About April

I'll come back to this when I find out who I really am. I've been through some extremely rough patches but they have made me a better person. I blog if my brain is functioning first thing in the morning.

The Little Thought That Grew

Depression warning-you may want to skip if you’re having difficulty right now. Of all the years and years of dealing with depression—most of the time untreated depression, only once did I feel as if I wanted to end it all. … Continue reading

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Throw a Little Chaos Into It

Beware to readers who may be depressed at the time you read this. My intention is not to make you more hopeless because I know a new moment is coming to enjoy life….it’s just not right now. For months I … Continue reading

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Travelling First Class in My Mind

Understanding what we think is what we become has been a long process for me. I’m really tired of feeling depressed, obsessed, sad….. Ugh, I’m so tired of the questions of what thoughts are swirling in my mind right now? … Continue reading

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Sunday With April

We have had some changes to our little way of life. Our youngest moved out, along with his dogs. We are empty nesters again…for the first time in 30 years we are also dog free. Could this be what has … Continue reading

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Sunday With April

This week, the following made me smile: A deep breath of the scent of freshly cut grass (yes, I notice this often) Pink blossoms on a Mimosa Tree (or Persian Silk Tree) They rearranged the waiting area at our veterinarian’s … Continue reading

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The Cracks Will Eventually Fade

This is one of my metaphoric posts. I think if I visualize something I can make it stick in my mind. That little house in Nowhere, Missouri has really been a type of thorn in my side. Years ago…two? three? … Continue reading

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Learning to be Helpless? Aw, c’mon

My husband has been taking a class, “Psychology for Living”. He has shared varying topics he has learned. He shares, I nod. Yes, I know about all that. I live that. The other day, he started describing, Learned Helplessness. Hmmm. … Continue reading

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A Dirty Little Secret

Some of you know that I, like many suffering from some sort of mental disorder, take a handful of pills. Some are vitamins and some are prescriptions. Dr.-Wacky-Pants-Pill-Pusher has thrown another one at me and this one took me way, … Continue reading

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each day

Apparently, I have hoisted myself out of bed the last several mornings. Saturday morning I hid under the covers for a brief time but I did get up. Anyway, life hasn’t been all doom and gloom. I would rather write … Continue reading

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Get Back Up

Ha! I’m sure my titles really draw a reader in, but I blog to watch the progression of my thoughts. I got up again this morning. I felt worse than yesterday. I deliberately repeated sayings in my mind to pull … Continue reading

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