Author Archives: April

About April

I'll come back to this when I find out who I really am. I've been through some extremely rough patches but they have made me a better person. I blog if my brain is functioning first thing in the morning.

What Can I Do?

With all the weather disasters and the latest shooting in Las Vegas, I have been thinking about death. A lot. Actually, before all the recent events I was thinking about death. Not suicide, just death. George Washington was here once. … Continue reading

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Trying Too Hard

Finding, or noticing, triggers for depression is very hard for me. Or maybe I simply ignore the triggers and keep on pushing until I break, only to find out that I broke over nonsense. I’m not one for change. It’s … Continue reading

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Here

I used to be there I used to be here Here and there Did I choose the wrong fork in the road? No, I turned around Did I run? Walk? Crawl? Think? Wander aimlessly? Here I am How did I … Continue reading

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Sunday With April

Some of what I found beautiful this week…. I love when people tell me they believe I’m much younger than the number of my years Some perfect weather with fan-in-the-window sleeping instead of a/c Good mammogram screening My husband finally … Continue reading

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Another Attempt At Mindfulness

Again, I have started reading, The Mindful Way Through Depression. I have actually read the first chapter….twice! Well, four times if the other readings are taken into account. Anyway, the author points out how some of us living with depression think … Continue reading

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Beauty in Ordinary Things

My husband and I were watching something…..well, he was watching, I was staring off into space, listening. I can’t remember what we were watching but the phrase, “I find beauty in the ordinary things”, made me pay attention. I asked … Continue reading

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Sunday With April

Amidst chaos, self-doubt, self-hate, changes…..look, and you will find some beauty. I have a list that has accumulated and some of what I have found to be beautiful are… Lavender, lots of lavender Sensible Girlfriend – she makes me laugh … Continue reading

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Warning Music Needed

I often wish life would simply roll along without any detours. By detours, I mean depression or massive anxiety. It would be so nice if my life were like a Hallmark movie. You know, with quirky updated elevator music always … Continue reading

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When a Smile Is Not a Smile

A lot has been going on in my life and I have so much to say but have kept it all tucked into my bag of Shame On Me. Our daughter was married last Sunday. She married a wonderful young … Continue reading

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The Little Thought That Grew

Depression warning-you may want to skip if you’re having difficulty right now. Of all the years and years of dealing with depression—most of the time untreated depression, only once did I feel as if I wanted to end it all. … Continue reading

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