The day after Christmas is always a letdown. It always has been and, more than likely, always will be. I should prepare for it. I thought I had.
Eons ago I learned not to expect anything, just let the days around the holiday happen.
Enjoy each moment. But……
I still have expectations.
I still miss the moments.
I force the days around the holiday.
The meals, the birthday, the cleaning, the various schedules of the family, the wrapping, the pleasing…the pleasing…the pleasing.
Is everybody enjoying themselves?
I actually have a logical part of my brain that continues to function. I’ll bet you didn’t know that. That part of my mind doesn’t understand this side of my personality.
Inside my mind I repeat…let it go, let it happen, embrace it. I say it over and over until it drowns out all the noise around me. I try to take mini breaks….you know, like in the bathroom…but not so long that someone thinks something is wrong with me.
But they know anyway.
They know there is something wrong with me.
It’s the day after.
Next December 26th will be another day after…..and I will try again to break the cycle.
The following made me smile:
- Our daughter was home
- Looking at wedding dresses online with our daughter
- The Christmas Eve festivities consisted of an NFL football game, I cooked, and instead of a board game our daughter picked out a puzzle–one of our other traditional holiday activities. She picked out one of the hardest puzzles.
- I surprised my husband with birthday and Christmas gifts that he didn’t expect, and I know he will actually use them.
- Our family was all together.
I just wish I were present for the last week.
Hope you are having a good day after and can find something to make you smile.