On September 11, 2001, I woke up early and had the urge to turn on the television. It was 6am and we were living in the Seattle area. I believed that I needed to check the news because school might be cancelled due to snow. Snow doesn’t happen in Seattle in September.
That’s when I saw the tragic events unfold….right after the first plane hit the Twin Towers. I was worried about all the people who couldn’t get out of the building…..how were they going to get off the top of the building? The second plane hit the second tower, and I remember saying out loud, “no way”.
If someone told me about these events, I would have had a hard time believing that it happened. However, I was seeing it all happen in front of my eyes. Opinions of journalists and newscasters were all in agreement. We were under attack.
Many years have now passed, but that day is still vivid in my mind….just as it is in the minds of countless others.
Another president was elected, twice, and I thoroughly researched every piece of information that was fed to me. I used to have CSPAN on the television as background noise—to block out the incessant barking of dogs in our area. I listened to hearings, and watched votes being cast by our representatives.
I didn’t do anything different with this past election. I watched live speeches, read everything I could, trying to retain information. I took opinions at face value. Opinions that may have been different than mine but I was willing to listen. I texted my kids and urged them to vote. They responded with pictures of their cats cleaning their nether regions. eye roll
However, I feel as if I missed something. I don’t believe that half of our country voted in our next president because not all registered voters voted. A small section of our country chose our next leader…..a huge fear I have had my entire adult life.
News is no longer news.
News from our man-child of a president elect comes in the form of Tweets. False information. Tweets against a parody of him on Saturday Night Live? I understand the concept of multi-tasking, but isn’t there something more important that this narcissist has to do?
As a person suffering from a mental illness, I have difficulty making decisions. I strive to inform myself as best I can.
Where can I go for factual information and not just opinions? Does it really matter? My mind processes information independently from the opinion of others. We all do. We take the same presented “facts” and interpret them according to our life experiences.
I started blogging for various reasons and it has turned in the direction of making mental illness not so scary so that people aren’t afraid to seek treatment and to avoid the fear of being ostracized. We aren’t all loonies, we live with more challenges. I would like to see the stigma erased. Unfortunately, our next president is a perfect example of untreated mental illness. He perpetuates the stigma.
And I worry.
If you have made it to the end of this post….yay! I recognize I’m not alone with these feelings and I’m fully aware that others don’t agree with me. I just had to have my say so that I can let it go and not have so many obsessive thoughts regarding the health of our country.
I will speak no more of my disappointment and fear on this topic. From now on, I will replace my worry with action…..whatever that may look like.