I’m about to do something that stretches the limits I have placed upon myself due to fear…or anxiety. My therapist calls it exposure therapy. I have been going through most of the small steps to go beyond the limits of my anxiety and I have been 100% successful so far.
As most who have been following my ramblings, you know I really hate going to the grocery store. I have no reason…just hate it for some reason and it causes anxiety.
I’m going to go to the grocery store in the afternoon! I usually shop strictly in the morning when there are less people in the store.
It may sound a little odd to y’all but it’s a big step for me to shop in the afternoon. The last time I went grocery shopping I made myself peruse the store a little. I took a detour from my mission to get in-get out, and walked a bit slower. I made more eye contact and forced a smile. All the baby steps I have taken to get to that point, with lots and lots of deep breaths and focus, I was successful. It was difficult because I have been a little bit on the depressed side lately.
Will I make it this time? You bet I will….because I want to.
Is it that easy?
We shall see….if I go with the expectation that I will survive, as I have the thousands of times prior to today, I should be okay. If I go with the expectation that I will have a panic attack….will I?
Okay, that’s a good enough pep talk for today…