It’s almost noon.
I’m still in my pajamas. I have taken the dog out in my pjs one time and hopefully, the next time she has to go out, I will have taken a shower and dressed for the day. (my daytime clothing choices can be bad, so it may not be a bad thing traipsing around in my pjs)
Throughout life stages we have routines. You know, the one that starts with an alarm to get to work on time. If you sleep through said alarm, the day is totally screwed.
For me, the next stage was stay-at-home mom. The babies became my alarm clock and dictated my daily routine.
Now…as an under qualified, old person that nobody but McDonalds will hire, I have a new routine.
I usually wake up by 7:30….that’s after initially waking up at 5:00 when my husband starts to exercise before going to his place of employment. After a tiny feeling of guilt that I should get up and exercise too, I turn over and sleep for another 2 1/2 hours. Every single day, I have to talk myself into getting out of bed.
If it weren’t for my routine of taking my medications on time, and the whine of the cats begging for food. Oh, and letting the dog out before it’s too late. I would be in bed at noon and beyond.
The grocery store avoidance is a bad routine, and I want to make it stop. (It’s the reason I’m in my pjs at noon). I find all kinds of things to distract me until I finally realize that I won’t be going to the store today.
My therapist suggested I turn things into a habit. I like making positive thinking a habit, I like knitting as a habit. I cannot make grocery shopping an enjoyable habit. Geesh! What a waste of time. If I would just go and get it over with, I would have all day to do something else beside feel guilty.
So….I’m going in. I will make an attempt to notice all that is beautiful in the grocery store. The smells that make me buy stuff I shouldn’t. The music that distracts me so that I buy stuff I shouldn’t. The line I have to stand in to pay for the food I shouldn’t be buying.
don’t suggest making a list. I always have a list. It is written according to how things are arranged in the store. Remember…..my mission, should I choose to accept it…..get in, get out.