My intentions are always good but sometimes they backfire over what I do to myself. I have to admit, before my CT scan, I was convinced the results would prove a recurrence. I was mentally sorting what I need to purge so that others don’t have to deal with my stuff after I’m gone. I asked myself questions such as, will I feel like doing this stuff–the purging–if I were going through chemo? What happened to my pledge that I will be the most fit person I could be in case I have another health setback I have to fight?
Among other things, that’s what has been going through my mind. To be frank, my mind is full! I can’t relish more information.
Sounds like I’m a little small minded, but the fact is, I have to fight each day to stave off the black dog (depression). I have more good days than bad now, but the bad do come around–to annoy me just enough to occupy my mind with nonsense.
So…..I’m still around, doing well, but just a bit overloaded. I hope to be reading my favorite blogs when I clear my mind of the crap.