For me, keeping my mind on thoughts of the past is what drags me down. I suppose it drags anyone down who insist on dwelling in the past.
Many years ago I learned how to stop my negative thinking. It became a choice. Sometimes I let myself wallow in it and sometimes I tell myself to stop and think of the present.
I still struggle with the self-hate that comes with dwelling in my negative past. I feel it is the root of my struggle with depression. However, I logically know I cannot do anything about changing my past.
Not sure why I feel the need to write this, but another past friend bites the dust. The one I treated with little respect but went out of my way to support when losses occurred in their life. It’s been bothering me for months to have to let go, but let go I must. I believe I was written off long ago but was too ignorant to see it. How can a friend be in your area and not stop by for coffee? How can a friend rub in your face that they have a bff for life while completely ignoring you? (Facebook really stinks)
I hear loud and clear now, and I must move along and make new friends. As much as I would love to be part of a gaggle of friends who are close for life, it will never be that way for me. I have a couple of close friends and that’s okay.
So, goodbye to another little piece of my past. I need to do this to make room for today. I can no longer stay in the same spot. It’s starting to get a little smelly.
**I have clung to a few bad relationships with judgemental hypocrites, narcissists, and bullies. I have finally let the *friendship of the last one go.