There has been a meme I have seen a couple of times on that dreadful social media site, Facebook, regarding listening. The quote reads something like we don’t listen because we’re too busy focusing on our reply.
I’m guilty because I worry too much about saying the wrong thing, saying something stupid….oh, I could go on but it’s called Social Anxiety and I have it. I have learned to observe and not give my two cents. I have learned that keeping silent helps me avoid a wee bit of self-hate.
Lately I’ve been listening to what I’m telling myself and I don’t like what I’m hearing.
However, it explains why I chose friends who weren’t really friends. Why I sabotage myself when trying to shed my 25 year old baby fat, why I see glimpses of accomplishments only to quash them before I can bask in the glow of a success.
You know what else I hear?
I hear that I can fix this now that I know what I’m telling myself. I no longer have to live this way but I need some help finding my way out of a lifetime of telling myself lies.
I have no fear about redirecting my thoughts because I’m a persistent little bugger.
Now….where do I start?