The following made me smile:
- the book we are using for our ‘traditional shower installation’ pointed out that after the concrete for the pre-slope of the shower cures for at least 12-hours, make sure there aren’t any high spots or dips. So…the suggestion was to sand the high spots, so I did. Of course, sanded concrete makes a fine dust—which I sat in. My husband used the shop-vac to remove said dust from my rump. He probably smiled more than I did.
Oh here you go. I knew I couldn’t completely avoid that which plagues me.
During this challenge, I’ve been trying to write about the first word to pop into my head.
….right after the one regarding depression or anxiety.
I have lived a life full of anxiety. Over the years, I found ways to avoid fear at all costs.
Sometimes we don’t even know what we are fearful of, or what is causing our anxiety at a particular moment. We just have varying degrees of horrible physical responses creating us to feel panicked, or as if we may die.
For the most of my life, my anxiety was inadequately treated. I tried to contain it with alcohol in the early years, later turning to medication prescribed by my primary doctor. However, I was missing the behavior therapy part.
If anxiety is left untreated, it will contaminate most of your thoughts.
As I got older and wiser 😉 I finally decided enough was enough. First I got mad because I realized how many years I have stifled myself because I was afraid, then I sought out the proper help.
I haven’t completely rid myself of anxiety, because I learned to fear the fear. I’m in the process of un-learning that negative process revolving in my mind.
I’m fed up with avoiding doing things I want to do, but too afraid to do them.
Fear, freakin’ fear.
I don’t want it in my life any more!