Thee is really me, but I thought that maybe a little of what I’m trying to accomplish may inspire others who suffer from Anxiety.
I have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, but I also suffer from Social Anxiety.
With the proper help and the mix of drugs I’m on, I have been able to stand back and observe my thoughts when I start to feel anxious. I ask myself a series of questions and then ask what I’m going to do about them. This is an exercise I couldn’t do without the help of my therapist.
I love, love, love being a homebody. My sanctuary. If I never left the house, I don’t think I would care. However, it’s not healthy. We all need human contact…beyond our immediate family. I don’t fear leaving the house, but I’m stuck in a mind set of wrapping myself in a blanket and reading a book, or knitting.
I am pushing myself forward because I have discovered that my anxiety issues over most things are absolutely humorous to me at this point. This is a personal discovery about myself. I know that anxiety is a crippling disease, and I have been working hard to overcome mine.
So, I have made a tiny list of goals to reach beyond my comfort zone.
Actually, the items on my list I don’t even feel the slightest fear over. It’s simply getting my rear in the car and going here and there. Perhaps, I’m still afraid of being afraid.
One other thing I have been challenging myself with is the expectation of perfectionism.
I am knitting a blanket in the team uniform colors of the Seattle Seahawks, alternating the colors as I knit. Normally, everything would be balanced and the rows would follow some form of a pattern. I’m knitting with a color until I decide to change. The task is seriously testing me.
Today, I challenge myself to take a walk with Sensible Girlfriend and the grand puppy. After that, The Home Depot for some bathroom caulk to redo all the bathrooms, then the dreadful grocery store for a quick mission.
A few things at a time, and before long I shall conquer. I need the energy to stave off depression.