Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the staircase. -Martin Luther King Jr.
The above quote has been on my mind for weeks.
There are so many uplifting blogs full of inspirational messages, and I can honestly say that while I was depressed, not one word made a difference to me. It didn’t matter until I learned how to make it matter.
Ideas for most of my blog content became a way to paint a picture for those who don’t understand what it’s like inside the tortured mind of a depressed person. It is not a matter of choosing happiness over sadness. Depression is far more than sadness. It can’t be thought away, but continuously thinking about the misery can keep us down.
To recover, focus has to be placed on the correct thing. Part of which is believing that you are stronger than you think, and are worthy of a life.
As I began to type this morning, I started rehashing what brought me to the world of depression and to show how far I’ve come. Some of you who have followed me for a while know, as I have repeated it one too many times. You also know how far I’ve come.
When I wrote about all the events the first time, that was my world. Every time I wrote about what took me to the edge of not wanting to live, I became suffocated by my own negative thoughts and hopelessness.
It’s highly doubtful I will be sharing too much of my mindful determination, or the work it took to reach this point of recovery. I have gone beyond wanting to teach what depression feels like.
I want to inspire others to understand that anxiety and depression can be managed.
I have no clue what I will blog about in the future, but I will no longer give negativity any more power over me.
My words won’t make a difference if someone isn’t trying to move from the place in which they focus all their waking thoughts. They may not have chosen the existence of depression or anxiety and not know how to relieve their pain, but I can’t do it for them.
Somewhere, in the fog, there is help. It’s up to you to ask for it. To fight for it.
There is hope.
You are worthy.
Just take that one step—the staircase it there—trust me.