Accountability has been a thorn in my side ever since my therapist mentioned it.
If I were born a Native American, my name would be Stomps With Foot Dammit—said in the language of the tribe which would welcome me.
My alter ego, Stomps With Foot Dammit asked, why can’t I just hold myself accountable? Why do I have to be accountable to someone else? It’s me that’s driving me crazy, why do I have to involve another?
We went through an exercise of defining my number one priority. Of course, that was my physical health. That was what drove me to seek her out in the first place–who knew I that I would find more than anxiety issues over cancer recurrence, and I’m so grateful that I did.
Anyway, after determining how I was going to go about getting healthy, she set up some homework for me. eye roll I was to choose some ridiculously small exercise goal for a certain number of days, and email her after I had accomplished each task. Which I did. I was honest, because that’s how I am.
However, Stomps With Foot Dammit continued to believe that I should be able to hold myself accountable, and not require the assistance of a babysitter. It’s a matter of how bad do I want it, and how far will I go to accomplish it.
My daughter and I have fitness trackers, and we are on a team of two. We encourage each other to eat healthy, get plenty of sleep, and perform the 10,000 steps that a healthy person should walk in one day.
First thing I did was make my goal number of steps each day far less than 10,000. Just think of how deflated I would get if I couldn’t attain that number each day. I would give up before I gave it a good chance.
The motivation to make the steps has been a wonderful incentive for me.
I don’t mind getting up and down over and over, to let the dog in and out. Instead of piling a stack of things to go upstairs and try to haul it all at once, I make the separate trips. I park in a spot farther from the door of the grocery store. Gotta rack up those steps.
To reward myself for accomplishing a task, I allow myself to indulge in knitting a row or two of my latest knitting project.
Now, the real test is how long I can keep this up?