The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity. –Emelia Earhart
One area of my life I have yet to conquer is motivation and follow through.
I have lofty ideas, collect all the materials, stack them in a pile, and create more ideas. Then I become overwhelmed by my piles of stuff. I should also mention that I scatter my piles. I find photography equipment all over the place. Crafting stuff not in the designated crafting area. Important papers in extremely odd places. I could go on, but I’m sure I painted a well defined picture.
Through blogging, I found a way to work through depression. To be totally honest, when I started blogging, my focus was to remain positive—always. However, I almost felt as if I were pretending to be someone I wasn’t. When I found I couldn’t live up to my expectation to remain positive all the time, the false belief I had of being a failure held me captive in that dark pit.
Now that I have reached a more level mind state, I have set a couple of goals—actually more than a couple, but I know I need to go slow. My therapist suggested that I may reach the goals I have set, by being held accountable.
After reading a blog by a Ms. Perfect-House Pants—I felt ashamed by my lack of progress toward reaching my goal of organization. She revealed how it took her an hour to organize her linen closet, and was shocked over the amount of time she spent performing this chore! Her post was so positive and upbeat. I don’t know, perhaps there are perfect people like her, perkiness included—I’m just not one of them.
I realized I needed to blog for us lazy people. The people who start a project and lose interest within the first ten minutes. The people who would take days, maybe months to organize their linen closets.
The real people who blog from their heart. Those of us who are who we are. Even in the blog world, where we can remain anonymous—we still can’t pretend to be someone other than who we are.
To motivate myself, I’m forming a new plan of attack. I’m going to blog about my successes regarding my ongoing struggles to reach my goals.
I dream of a series of posts such as—30 Days to Becoming Organized, filled with wonderful tips for how you can reach it too. Ha! I may share some of what I’ve learned, but I’ve tried to follow the tips of the Ms. Perfect-House Pants’ of the world, and I found we all have our unique styles.
Also, I may feel like writing about something else. So, I think I will start with a more random series.
I have been working on a household budget, and organization of my office space. Thus, a starting point for being held accountable. If I want to blog about my process, maybe I will be more inclined to actually get things done?
And so begins my journey.